隠し雨 (kakushi ame, Concealing Rain)

disclaimer: i am not fluent in japanese

独りで重い雨の中に立って
震えて 傘が壊れちゃった

急に 隠し雨に涙が浮かぶ
遠くから 君の事をまったく見えない
君の 笑顔を 見えない
君の 愛情を 感じない

声が出せない 何も言えない
君に届かない この弱い声で
君に届かない この萎え感情で

寒風がふいながら 細い体が震えてる
夜が長くなってる だけど眠られない

慰めが欲しかっただけ
愛を求めていなかったさえも
いまなら…
幸せは砂のように指を篩に掛けた
結局残されたのは「絶無」だけ

声が出せない 何も言えない
僕に届かない その泣き声で
僕に届かない その苦しみで

寒風がふいながら 細い決心が震えてる
すぐに朝がくる まだ眠られない

静かに 隠し雨で涙が流された
近くから 僕の事をまったく見なかった
僕の 涙が 見せられなかった
僕の 愛を 伝えられなかった

独りで重い雨の中に溺れていた









English:

Concealing Rain

Standing alone in the heavy rain
Shivering, my umbrella had broken

Suddenly, tears emerge in the concealing rain
From afar I can't see you at all
I can't see your smile
I can't feel your love

My voice won't come out, but there's nothing I could say
I can't reach you with this weak voice
I can't reach you with these faltering emotions

The cold wind is blowing, my thin body is shivering
The nights are getting longer, but I can't sleep

I just wanted comfort
I wasn't even looking for love
But now...
Happiness sifted through my fingers like sand
In the end, all that's left is "nothingness"

My voice won't come out, but there's nothing I could say
You can't reach me with that crying voice
You can't reach me with that pain

The cold wind is blowing, my thin resolve is trembling
Soon the morning will come, I can't sleep yet

Quietly, the concealing rain washed away the tears
From up close, you couldn't see me at all
I couldn't show you my tears
I couldn't tell you how much I love you

I was drowning alone in the heavy rain

" I
l
o
v
e
y
o
u
.
.
.
"

Romaji:

kakushi ame

hitori de omoi ame no naka ni tatte
furuete kasa ga kowarechatta

kyuu ni kakushi ame ni namida ga ukabu
tooku kara kimi no koto wo mattaku mienai
kimi no egao wo mienai
kimi no aijou wo kanjinai

koe ga dasenai nani mo ienai
kimi ni todokanai kono yowai koe de
kimi ni todokanai kono nae kanjou de

kanpuu ga fuinagara hosoi karada ga furueteru
yoru ga nakunatteru dakedo nemurarenai

nagusame ga hoshikatta dake
ai wo motometeinakatta sae mo
ima nara...
shiawase wa suna no you ni yubi wo furui ni kaketa
kekkyo nokosareta no wa "zetsumu" dake

koe ga dasenai nani mo ienai
boku ni todokanai sono nakigoe de
boku ni todokanai sono kurushimi de

kanpuu ga fuinagara hosoi karada ga furueteru
sugu ni asa ga kuru mada nemurarenai

shizuka ni kakushi ame de namida ga nagasareta
chikaku kara boku no koto wo mattaku mienakatta
boku no namida ga miserarenakatta
boku no ai wo tsutaerarenakatta

hitori de omoi ame no naka ni oboreteita

" ai
shi
te
ru
.
.
.
"

note: i just kinda went in and wrote this with no real goal behind the song. figures it came out melancholy af.

Writing © koutetsuhime, May 2022.